As most of you know by now, I have been struggling with Lyme Disease for almost a year. This week it kicked me right in the nuts and dropped me to the ground. This was a debilitating week. However, I have learned, as time has gone on, how to catch these nasty flare ups and calm them as fast as I can. So, thanks to my Essential Oils, a whole day in bed, and extra TLC from my husband and children, I am on the mend. Good thing, because not being able to use one leg for a day, and then having my jaw seized up on the next....Didn't help my spring fever at all!!!! Now, even though I am still not 100%, I can move on, just a little slower then normal. So, it will be back to starting seeds, and rototilling, and fence building, finishing up our homeschool year (because in our homeschool we are sure to be done by the first week of May!), chicken tending.....and the list goes on. Today though, that is all going to wait, because I have been invited to do something that I have wanted to do for SOOO long. I want to share this adventure with you.
This is totally of topic from what I usually write about. This is not about fishing, or chickens, or any of that hippie stuff. This is about nurturing broken places way down deep inside of my soul. Some of you might think I have jumped right off the deep end. Some of you might not believe in this topic of conversation, but here's the thing, that's okay. This is about me. This is about years and years of pain from multiple losses.
A beautiful, thoughtful friend has invited me to be a part of a group reading with a medium. This friend has already had the opportunity to sit through a group reading with this particular medium. She had an incredible experience, and I am THRILLED to have this chance.
I have known the pain of loss since a very early age. One of my first memories is from attending the funeral of a baby brother that I was anticipating. A baby brother that was due to be born healthy any day, but instead was born ready to bury. I have lost grandparents, great-grandparents, aunts, uncles, friends, pets......I am a person who loves with my whole heart, even if you really screw up, I will still be there. So, when death comes lurking in and takes you away, a peace of me gets broken.
I have learned different ways of handling death over the years. I also have tuned in to my spirituality a bit, not in a religious sense necessarily, but in a.......bigger meaning, more to life, everything happens for a reason, interconnected sense. I hope I haven't lost you. What I mean is, that I know in my soul, that our loved ones aren't lost forever, they have moved on, but they are with us. I pay attention to the signs. I sometimes just know things, before they happen. I do not profess to be a world renowned clairvoyant, psychic, medium, or anything of the sort. All I am saying is, I believe there is more to life than what we see.
So, my point here is, I am grateful that I feel better! I am so happy this bought with Lyme was short in duration, because I would be crushed if I missed this. Most people I talk to get nervous before this type of event. I on the other hand could not be more EXCITED!!!! I will probably get there early. I will be ready with my box of tissues, and some kind of recording device. I have butterflies in my belly. I have loved big and lost many, tragically, unexpectedly, and some to prolonged terminal illness. Bring on the messages, the countdown is on!
Blessings to all.
Thanks for reading,
Island Momma